Not much to say, just a general update
Hi Ladies. I don't really have anything to update, but its been a while since I wrote a journal, so I figured I'd let you know I'm still around, even if I haven't been too active on DS these days. Truthfully and sadly, I just don't feel I belong here anymore.
We are at a point where we are no longer seeking any treatments or actively TTC. I'm still grieving my loss and feel like I can't move forward with any decisions on what's next, whether that is adoption, donor eggs or embryos, foster care, or just not having children, until I am in a better place and have made peace with the fact I won't have any biological children.
I think of you all often. You might not hear from me as much, but I'm always on your side, whether its feeling your heartaches or celebrating your joys. Please forgive me if I miss a journal or some news, but know I'm always wishing everyone all the best, no matter where you are in the IF battle.
I have said it many times, and will say it again: 2013 was a hell of a year for me, and I would not have gotten through it without the support and love from my DS family. I am eternally grateful, and no matter where my journey leads, I will always hold a special place in my heart for you.
Big hugs xoxoxo
We are at a point where we are no longer seeking any treatments or actively TTC. I'm still grieving my loss and feel like I can't move forward with any decisions on what's next, whether that is adoption, donor eggs or embryos, foster care, or just not having children, until I am in a better place and have made peace with the fact I won't have any biological children.
I think of you all often. You might not hear from me as much, but I'm always on your side, whether its feeling your heartaches or celebrating your joys. Please forgive me if I miss a journal or some news, but know I'm always wishing everyone all the best, no matter where you are in the IF battle.
I have said it many times, and will say it again: 2013 was a hell of a year for me, and I would not have gotten through it without the support and love from my DS family. I am eternally grateful, and no matter where my journey leads, I will always hold a special place in my heart for you.
Big hugs xoxoxo
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I really hope you get to a better place so you can evaluate your options and make the right decision for you. It saddens me to hear you like this, and I am really rooting for you to heal. My loss still hurts as well, so although not equal I can understand how you are feeling. Big hugs to you!
Big hugs to you hun. Completely understandable how you are feeling....I think of you often and hope that someway, somehow you find your peace and joy in life with children, no matter how it ends up!!!! Thinking of you....keep your head high and hang in there!! XOXO\"s
Big hugs! I hope u find ur place if peace soon rather it\'s with adopted children, ur very own miracle, or no children at all. Always in my thoughts! Xoxo
I think of you often as well. I\'m sorry you are still in so much pain, and it\'s something you have to work through at your own pace. I\'ve struggled with whether I still belong as well, and it can hurt. We are here for you whenever you want to stop by and just let us know what\'s going on in your life. Hugs!
I\'m glad to hear from you. I\'ve been thinking about you as well. I definitely can understand your pain - I am still hurting as well. I think that you need to take as much time as your heart requires. You are mourning not only the loss of your child, but the loss of any future biological children. That is a lot to work through. Some day, when you are ready, hope may just return to your heart. I hope it does.
Sorry you are struggling with what to do next. Just hold true to the thought that you will be a mother somehow / someway and I am sure you\'re direction will become clear! Feel better hon and thanks for checking it! XO
Its good that you are taking time to heal and take care of you. Each of our journeys is different, so its important to do whats right for you and not what someone else has done or maybe suggests.
You will likely always mourn the loss of your little one and you need to be able to grieve for the loss of maybe never having biological children, but I do hope someday you are able to find peace and move forward with another option that will lead you to becoming a mommy.
Thinking of you XO
Oh honey I just wish I could hug you. I can\'t imagine how hard a time you must be going through trying to get over the mc and figuring out what you should do.I wish IF wasn\'t so cruel.
I wish there was something more we could do to help but also know how hard it cab be to be on DS when you aren\'t moving foward. We know you can but you have to do what is best for you. Sending some love your way.
xoxo
I\'m sorry you are going through so much and experiencing so much sadness. Take all the time you need to figure out what your next steps will be. Know that I\'m always thinking of you and rooting for you.
The healing process takes time and I completely understand that you need to give yourself that time and not rush into any decision making.
For the two years I have been on DS there have been countless times I wondered if I belonged too because we couldn\'t afford treatment (IVF) and it seems that most who are active on DS are involved in some sort of treatment... while I sat on the sidelines. The majority of the women who were actively doing treatments did get pregnant and it was wonderful for them but yet it was also a reminder that I\'m still left behind. It\'s hard and please know I understand. I hate that you are going through this. Do what you need to do to feel at peace and know we are here for you. Big Hugs!
Hoping that 2014 brings you closure and clarity for your future plans
Please do not ever feel like you do not belong in this group. From the very beginning you were someone I looked up to on here. You\'re a warrior and truly an inspiration. Thank you for always thinking and praying for us but know that no matter where you are in your journey we are all still praying and supporting you. Love you always. Xo