Not in a good place
Title sums it up. Not sure if it's everything, knowing my life had not changed one iota in two years, or the fact it has to shortly. I still don't know where I am going to go. I have been up since midnight, my heart racing, and now it is 5 am and time to get to work soon. That horrible feeling in the pit of my stomach just seems to get worse. I worry about Xmas, how to pay for the repairs on my car, school fees, daycare etc. knowing I can't do it when I leave here for my own place. I understand I have been holding my head in the sand for two years, but at the same time trying my damnedest. I just don't think I am doing very well. I wish I could have help. I never ask or have asked but I do eish I could go back and change things.
Let me say by help I mean family, just to give me a break. I am seeing a therapist and yes I am on something to help, right now. I know I can't go back and I don't really wallow in that often. Just something this holiday season has it me. All the running around, no time off work, and no time to myself leaves me a little ragged some days. I am making it, just not like the way I want or should be.
Let me say by help I mean family, just to give me a break. I am seeing a therapist and yes I am on something to help, right now. I know I can't go back and I don't really wallow in that often. Just something this holiday season has it me. All the running around, no time off work, and no time to myself leaves me a little ragged some days. I am making it, just not like the way I want or should be.
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Taking life one day at a time is all we can hope for. Live each day as it comes. I\'m keeping you in my thoughts and prayers and close in my heart. Love Always, Chris
Just want you to know that you are not alone this holiday season. I have been feeling just like you. It\'s normal. Sending a hug! Remember journal when all else seems to fail.
(((L))) I understand how you feel. I was feeling that way for a long time, like I hated to even get up but knew I had to because of my kids. But it was like it was a huge ordeal for me to even get through the day. Then I leaned on a good friend who unfortunately moved 4 hours away, but she really kind of slapped me in the face so to say and made me see that I was worthy of happiness and deserved it.
Wish I could do more than just offer my encouragement from a far and give a cyber hug. You are strong, amazing and beautiful and you will find a way to get it all done. It really comes down to prioritizing and making it happen, even if you have to sacrifice some things that are important.
Hang in there, the rough times are there to help us learn and make us stronger.