Not here.

I am not here nearly as much as I should be. I guess I lost a ton of friends because of it. But even though things are falling back into place...I am always so tempted to smoke, but I haven't done that in a while. It's not like im addicted, just sometimes when I have nothing to do, It an option and it's always so easy to get when it's free. So I havn't blazed in about 2 weeks (I know not a very long time) BUT! It's wayyy good for me. But now I know that if I smoke again I will get such a good high. After you go a long time without smoking it just feels wierd. Your body just wants it so bad. and then when you do get high it's like your brain just dosn't care about your problems your having, and you just chill. It's the ultimate relaxition time for me. On a better note, I ran a 400 again and was wonderfully surprized that my time went down a second. That was huge and surprizing. Now I can actually start training with legitimate athletes. It took a while and I still have time to get it down. I think I should set a goal for 47.50, that would be amazing. But whatever I have all first semester of next year to worry about that. Right now I just want to relax and get in shape. =]