not happy

well on may 9th 2017 my wife of 25 years 10 months and 8 days died while on a walk with my 10 year old daughter. i got a call that day that my wife was hurt and i needed to come, i sent my son (14) ahead of me because i was just waking up from a nap and was getting dressed. when i came upoon this nightmare i could not belive what was happening. My love my best friend my soulmate was gone. My soul and heart are destroyed, my faith in god is gone and in its place he put hate and rage. All i want now is for my daughter to be 22, she will be out of college and my son will be 26. Then i can shut down and end this shitfest of a fucking life. Thanks god for turnning your back on my family, oh and fuck your plan!