Not Good

I don't think i'm doing too good. I want to talk about it but I don't. I want someone to know but I dont. I want it to stop, but I'm scared. I don't want my mom to find out.. I freak out at the thought. My friends: three know now.. they say I should find a therapist or tell my mom or talk to someone. I have no money what do ever. My parents don't even really..  got enough to pay bills.. my mom has back problems.. keep us and the animals barely fed... borrowing money from grandparents. I don't know what to do. I'm scared.. I think I'm depressed.. I've been thinking off death lately, yet I haven't tried anything, I'm too scared about self harming.. I'm a wimp in general.. I'm a loser. A fucking loser.