Not Going to Believe This

I saw my oncologist the day before I was to leave for Michigan.  I had a list of questions, of course the top of the list was how to monitor me in case the cancer returns.  A scan will be done in about 6 weeks.  I need to contact my insurance company to see if they will pay for another PET scan.  I had one last November, but apparently insurance companies are not willing to pay for too many PET scans.  Can you believe that?  I would like to compare the new scan to the old one.  If they don't pay, I will have a CT scan and a bone scan.   My doctor also drew blood.  There are markers in your blood that are watched.  I called the doctor while I was on vacation and guess what?  The lab lost my blood sample.....I cried, I was so anxious to hear that number and find out what it meant.  I got home this last weekend, so yesterday I went for a new blood draw.  I begged the tech not to lose or drop my blood. My doctor also discussed my tumor markers.  She called my tumor "triple negative".  It was the first time I heard that term.  She said my cancer is very aggressive and my only course of treatment is chemo and radiation.  Tamoxifen and Herceptin will not be helpful in my situation. So what do I do?  I come home and goggle triple negative breast cancer.  Not a good thing.  I won't get into it because I don't want to hear it.  I need to do the best I can for my kids and myself.  I don't want it to get me down, but it is hard.  Sometimes the internet is not helpful - TMI. So that news ran through my mind for awhile, but today I feel good and I'm not going to let things get me down.  At least I'll try not to get down.  Everyday is a gift and I need to make the most of it. I see the doctor on the 26th for the marker results and then we'll order the scan.....waiting is so very hard........ P.S.  Today is my daughter's 12th birthday so it will be a good day!!!!!