Not getting better

I thought for a little while I was getting better. I'm taking medication my moods have improved. My anxiety was gone but had improved and became easier to deal with. The past few weeks have been getting harder last week I had my first full on massive panic attach I have had in a while. While I was having this panic attack I wanted to hurt my so bad. To me it felt like if I did that it would stop. I tried the rubber band method but that just left huge welts on my arms Nd only made me feel worse when I seen. It's getting to the point where I worry myself. Going to work everyday I end up feeling sick to my stomach the hole time I'm getting ready and the hole way there. Even being around my best friend tonight I was uncomfortable. I have known her going on five years now and I didn't even feel right being at her house. I have never had that problem with her. I am so unbelievably uncomfortable in my own skin.