Not feeling well
I'm back to 247.5 pounds... I don't know if I should be happy or sad. I've been stuck at this weight for a month now. I know I should be glad I'm not gaining (except for last week when I went up half a pound) but to be stuck at exactly the same weight is frustrating when you are trying to lose. I need to work harder at losing, but I'm doing everything I should be- eating in my calorie range, walking and working out, and doing strength training. I just want this weight to be gone already lol. I'm a bit impatient.
As for mood, I'm depressed today. Father's Day is coming up, which has been hard for me since I lost my dad 14 years ago. I just feel sick and I just want to curl up in bed and sleep. I slept for 10 hours last night, which was good, but then took a 2 or 3 hour nap. I'm still tired now and I could fall asleep right now if I wanted to, I think (it's about 9pm). I'm also having trouble eating. I was supposed to have a protein shake to help me get my protein for the day, and I'm having trouble with the idea of having it. I'm still going to be low on calories and stuff for the day if I do drink it, but at least it will help me get in the right direction. Maybe I should just go under calories for a couple days since I don't want to force food into my system when I feel sick.
That's another thing- I'm feeling sick. I'm nauseous, my throat is feeling a bit sore and my head has been hurting. I think it's all linked to the depression, though. I think that the depression is making me feel like crap physically as well as mentally. I'm out of Depakote and I will get more tomorrow, but it keeps me from going up, not down. I need more Prozac, I think. I didn't want to increase it, but it seems that my body is telling me I need more. I'm okay with my medications, but at the same time I don't want to be on more than I need to be on. It's not going to help me feel better to be drugged all the time.
I'm glad I got my fingerprints done on Friday since I'm going to be useless tomorrow I think. I mean that by not feeling well and not wanting to go out (except I have to to get my Depakote) but I think I'm just going to have to bite the bullet and get my butt out of bed tomorrow and get my stuff done. I have to go to the store, too. I've been putting it off because I didn't have my food stamps, and then I went to get my fingerprints done, and then it was the weekend and the buses don't run often then. I should just make a quick run to the store, it shouldn't be that hard. I just need bread, milk, stuff like that. Publix has beans on sale, I wanted to get some of those. I like black beans and rice lately. It's one of the things I can eat when I'm not feeling well. I just have to make the rice, which is why I want a rice cooker, to make it easier on me (and have better rice)
Stress wasn't too bad today... I just was depressed, so I don't know if that's stress related or not. I don't know if the grief I feel over Father's Day is stress related or not. I don't even know what stress is right now. I covered sleep and mood above, and I think I will throw out a link for food and exercise:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_tracker.asp?id=LARISSA238&dte=6%2F12%2F2011
That's it for me for today! I put the protein powder on there, and I'm going to do my best to drink it since I need the extra protein.
As for mood, I'm depressed today. Father's Day is coming up, which has been hard for me since I lost my dad 14 years ago. I just feel sick and I just want to curl up in bed and sleep. I slept for 10 hours last night, which was good, but then took a 2 or 3 hour nap. I'm still tired now and I could fall asleep right now if I wanted to, I think (it's about 9pm). I'm also having trouble eating. I was supposed to have a protein shake to help me get my protein for the day, and I'm having trouble with the idea of having it. I'm still going to be low on calories and stuff for the day if I do drink it, but at least it will help me get in the right direction. Maybe I should just go under calories for a couple days since I don't want to force food into my system when I feel sick.
That's another thing- I'm feeling sick. I'm nauseous, my throat is feeling a bit sore and my head has been hurting. I think it's all linked to the depression, though. I think that the depression is making me feel like crap physically as well as mentally. I'm out of Depakote and I will get more tomorrow, but it keeps me from going up, not down. I need more Prozac, I think. I didn't want to increase it, but it seems that my body is telling me I need more. I'm okay with my medications, but at the same time I don't want to be on more than I need to be on. It's not going to help me feel better to be drugged all the time.
I'm glad I got my fingerprints done on Friday since I'm going to be useless tomorrow I think. I mean that by not feeling well and not wanting to go out (except I have to to get my Depakote) but I think I'm just going to have to bite the bullet and get my butt out of bed tomorrow and get my stuff done. I have to go to the store, too. I've been putting it off because I didn't have my food stamps, and then I went to get my fingerprints done, and then it was the weekend and the buses don't run often then. I should just make a quick run to the store, it shouldn't be that hard. I just need bread, milk, stuff like that. Publix has beans on sale, I wanted to get some of those. I like black beans and rice lately. It's one of the things I can eat when I'm not feeling well. I just have to make the rice, which is why I want a rice cooker, to make it easier on me (and have better rice)
Stress wasn't too bad today... I just was depressed, so I don't know if that's stress related or not. I don't know if the grief I feel over Father's Day is stress related or not. I don't even know what stress is right now. I covered sleep and mood above, and I think I will throw out a link for food and exercise:
http://www.sparkpeople.com/mypage_tracker.asp?id=LARISSA238&dte=6%2F12%2F2011
That's it for me for today! I put the protein powder on there, and I'm going to do my best to drink it since I need the extra protein.
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