not doing well

I am not doing well today. I am having a hard time dealing with this holiday stuff sincemy mom died.  I am not really into the holiday spirit this year at all. I did not even start my Christmas shopping yet and normally I have everything done and wrapped by now. It sucks I hate it.  I have no family support at all either which kind of sucks to. I only have one fiiend and she is kind of supportive but at times she is in her  own little world. I just want to run away and hide. I just want the hoildays to be over with already. Well just had to vent a little thanks for listening. Bye for now.