Not Again

How the hell I end up right back here again, I should have never answered the phone or open the door, how did I allow this user back into my house,  I know things will end up just as it were just a few days ago, What am I missing within that makes me so vulnerable to him?   , I really need help because I can't walk into the New Year carrying the same ole shit and expecting to move forward in goodness and Blessings, I have to do something different and purposeful just for me. I deserve better and I need to put Me First,