not admitted......

i went to the hospital today and i did an assessment...my psychiatrist recommended the partial hospitalization program.....my mom was kind of ticked because they didn't do bloodwork or an EKG so we have no idea if everything is okay on the inside....and then my mom tried to motivate me and failed....made me feel kind of worse....i can only do PHP for a week because i'm going to wisconsin june 24......but i hope my mom will still welcome me....i don't know if my parents still love me.......i know i cause them problems and everything and i don't mean to.....i hope they do....