normal monday

Cleaning house like I do every monday. My husband went on his 1st emt ride along. He said they were busy. I dont thinlk hes gonna like it. For his seniority you think the city wouldnt make him do this. The union does nothing for them guys anymore. All I can say his job we just get buy, and with my anxiety, I cant work, my ptsd kicks in too. I wonder if I am alone with this. It all started when I was very young.  No one knows except now the doc is trying to figure eveything out. No doc had ever done this before. I cant wait for his results. I wish I could walk up to the store on this nice fall day, but I cant do it alone, and none of my sons can or wont.  I in only have one son home with me today. Usually I am alone during the day. I wish I had friends.  Its hard when no one talks to you with the silence of the clock. I gave up asking my husband for a dog. He is not going to bug. I guess thats it for today. God bless,