Normal...

I have a date next week.  At least I hope I do, nothing has really been confirmed. Apparently I am the luckiest guy around, if you listen to my friends.  I don't feel it though.  The opposite even.  I know how useless I am when it comes to having a date...they don't get it they think its over and that I've found someone. I just wish they knew what was going through my head so they knew how hard this will be for me. I really do like the lass, but I can see myself mucking it up, like I do everything else. I suck at smalltalk...like really.  I'm not interesting..far from it.   I have no idea how to act.... /sigh I should be happy, but I'm not...is that normal?