No time for anything

I owe You all few words.First of all - lying/truthtelling. I feel ashamed but I can't say for sure if I haven't lied for last few months. But I'm really struggling and I have certain successes. I told my Wife about few serious problems I would hide from Her in the past. But sometimes I wonder if something I said was truth actually. Anyway I fight for truth but it no longer works in such a way that my first thought is a lie. Now I can simply say what I'm thinking and it is ok.Second - my marriage. Well, it didn't change to much. I'm still living with my Wife We had several crisis situations and it seemed like I'll have to move out. But it changed a bit now. On one hand - we have settled that the next time She says I have to move out, I will do it at once without hesitating. On the other hand - She haven't been using this "weapon" for quite a long time now.I guess She can see some changes. And although She still talks about a divorce, She also allows me for some more intimacy I long so much. She can see for sure that I have told Her about my problems in work (wich I wouldn't in the post until the very last moment), She can see that I'm trying to do something about it, not only passivly wait. In general I feel I've become more mature now and I guess She has also noticed it.Third - work. I'm balancing on a line. It is very difficult for me, but also for my  Wife. Both at the end of August and at the end of October it wasn't sure if my contract will be prolonged. First it was lenghtened until the end of October, now it continues until the end of February (but the conditions have changed for worse now). So I am looking for a new job. She knows that and She knows I was telling I was looking for a job in the past while actually I did very little to find one then. Now I'm much more active, but results are rather poor so far. I'm not sure if She believes me I don't repeat my former mistakes, but She said She wasn't going to controll me. Anyway I would prefer finding some new job, because my current position is getting worse and worse.Finally - free time. I have less and less of it. Both me and my Wife go to some studies. It costs of course. I have to catch some additional jobs whenever possible. Also we have to prepare for our studies, and of course the studies itself take time. As a result I have almost no time for my Wife (weekend once about 5-6 weeks)and even less for anything else (including wisiting this group). Please don't blame me for that, I try to read news here from time to time and answer whenever someone asks me (directly). But please be patient. For some reasone I also don't receive mails informing about new messages. I'll try to fix it and then my answers should be somewhat faster. Hugs to everyone.