"no ones really sure who's letting go today.."

Sigh... I feel so hopeless tonight... been drinking for days..just to try to kill the pain for even minutes. So' im just sitting here drinking and listening to our old songs...it hurts yet i keep listening to them over and over and over and over.. I'm just so confused... One minute I had my family...was sitting at my computer listening to music and the next....my whole world started to fall apart in a matter of a few words.. and i let it all happen...whatever i cant change the past.....I have no control over her feelings towards me, i probably swayed them in this direction...but....meh yah...ill probably write again..this seems to help me.