No one would walk across the street

I sit watching this show and a girl breaks up with her boyfriend and the whole town comes to sit with her, talk to her, eat ice cream with her....and I think who would come if something serious went wrong in my life.  The answer is no one.  Well probably my middle son, but no one else.  I have absolutely no friends.  

Everyone at work on vacation starting this afternoon and I will sit alone at work too for 2 weeks.  No one to talk to.  I want a friend.  A bbf.  Someone I can always count on and who will always be there for me.  But it will never happen.  I will always be the outsider lurking on the fringe begging for scraps of attention and pitifully grateful when I get even a text message.

I am hopeless.