No motivation
I know I don't get on here much anymore, but life is just shit right now. I don't know what to do. My show has been over for a month, I am going to be 19 in a few weeks, I don't have a job or a drivers licence and I have no motivation to do anything.
Like really, when the fuck did this happen? What happened to the girl who was going to do things for herself? She was going to move out and get her life started the second she could. She had dreams and ambitions and a life to live.
Who am I kidding... she never existed. I only dreamed of that girl; someone I hoped I would become.
Fact is, somehow I knew it would end up this way. Light years away from where I want to be. Living at home, crying every night while watching british television. Still fat, still sad.
Trich has gotten better, though. I'm looking to get my hair cut within the next month or two so it will all be the same length again. All my bald spots have grown back in. Not fully, but there is hair there.
But everything else... I don't know what to do...
Like really, when the fuck did this happen? What happened to the girl who was going to do things for herself? She was going to move out and get her life started the second she could. She had dreams and ambitions and a life to live.
Who am I kidding... she never existed. I only dreamed of that girl; someone I hoped I would become.
Fact is, somehow I knew it would end up this way. Light years away from where I want to be. Living at home, crying every night while watching british television. Still fat, still sad.
Trich has gotten better, though. I'm looking to get my hair cut within the next month or two so it will all be the same length again. All my bald spots have grown back in. Not fully, but there is hair there.
But everything else... I don't know what to do...
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Take a couple of steps back and a couple of breaths in and let that dread fall away. You\'ll get through this in time. I don\'t doubt that for a minute. The fact that your trich has gotten better is a wonderful thing. Don\'t sign yourself out just yet. God has good things planned in your future. Stay as positive as you can and take it one day at a time for now. You are close in my heart always. Love and Hugs, Chris