No longer feeling sad

I woke up this morning and thought to myself I haven't really thought about my miscarriage in days. Maybe even weeks. I have thought about trying to get pregnant but the thought that I had a miscarriage isn't there anymore. I honestly felt guilty for a moment because all these amazing women I have met are still hurting and I am no longer sad or angry. I feel good.
I looked in the mirror last week and wasn't happy with what I saw. I saw an exhausted, pale, unmotivated looking woman and was like who is that? This isn't me. So this weekend I decided its time to get back on track and not look at what I have lost but look at what I have to look forward to. If it means having a baby great, if it doesn't then I need to deal with that and continue living.  
I guess its time to get back to basics. I don't want to miss out on what is in front of me. So its time to make me stronger and better. And thats going to take some time, but I am worth it.