No contact rule

Woke up this morning with a burning desire to call him and give him a peace of my mind.  UUUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHH!
Have not done so.   Last time I spoke with him in the phone I realize I can't do it.  I am not ready yet.
 
Been working really hard at my job, getting as many hours as possible to get some much needed cash for the move.   I am supposed to move by end of this month, a couple offer me a basament for $350 a month and I need to check it out.  It sounds big enough for both of us, and the price is beyond reasonable, so am praying tomorrow everything goes well.
Walk in the park this morning,  is not as hot as other days and the breeze helps calm down my anxiety and ease my mind.  There was a group of older folks practicing taichi  I like seen their fluid movements.  It is as the are ageless, their moves syncronized nicely.  The leader of the group invite me to join them next time.  I might.   I would look clumsy, but I am willing to try it!
Going to work now, it going to be a long night,  my company is expanding my department and for the next couple of months we are going to have a lot of work in our hands.