No Answers & so many Emotions

We met with our new RE again yesterday, hoping that he would have some answers- but none were found.  Really it all just comes back to unexplained infertility-  Not what I wanted to hear.  He wants to do three rounds of Clomid with IUI, but warned us of the low success rates.  DH has "super swimmers"- 54 million, however motility is only at 40%, morphology is good though.  Dr. said he likes 50% motility, so it is low, but doesn't seem to be worried about that end.  He did then casually add that DH has lots of antibodies in his sperm- I asked if this is a major problem, and yes, we learn that he could be killing some of his sperm off.  Apparently there is nothing that helps this problem?!?!  Frustrating again. The RE gives us a prescription for three months on Clomid and sends us on our merry way with an instruction sheet on when to call them, etc.  Adds that after three IUI's he would recommend we move on to IVF.  All the while sitting in the RE office listening to him I knew exactly what DH was thinking and as soon as we walked out of the office it was confirmed-  He firmly believes that God has a plan for us and it will include a baby, but in HIS time, not ours.  He says no to doing any IUIs and we have already discussed that we wouldn't pursue IVF.  I then proceed to start crying uncontrollably as DH tries talking to me- but ends up mad at me and admits that he doens't know what to say, and nothing he can say will make me stop crying, so he is going to stop talking.  I told him that I don't care how we have a baby- I just want to me a mommy- and he said that I can continue in the adoption process if I want- not sure how we will pay for it, but we know that God is in control and will help us if that is His will.  So after about 40 minutes of crying and yelling I was forced to calm down so that we could pick up our 18 month nephew from daycare because he was at our house overnight last night and all day today.  Again, God's perfect planning because having Matthew not only brings smiles to my face, but seeing DH with him last night confirms that I don't necessarily need a baby- we just want to be parents and would be okay with a little one Matt's age even.  Seeing him sleeping this morning, and watching DH sneak in to kiss him goodbye before he left for work just melts my heart. I do have DH convinced to do 5 more months on Clomid, as that is the number of prescriptions we have of it yet now with the new one intended to go with IUI-  we are going to run them and pray-  and also contact the adoption agency for a consultation.  Also praying that God makes it clear what direction we are to be going in.  DH says it is clear signs- there is nothing wrong with me and that is just God showing us that He will bless us with a baby in His time-  I say that God is telling us to do the IUI because He may need a little help- I know I sound like I am on crack and am wrong- but I am grasping for something. What did we do to deserve this road?