Nine Months - So Sad

I just had to write this morning....yesterday was the nine month mark.  How is it that you think you are surviving and doing OK and then BAM!  I'm at work right now, but have been crying all night and still....
Rachel, my love, I miss you so very much!  It hurts down to my core!  I want to scream and beg to be with you.  I know somewhere in my heart, you are of course in a better place.  But why did you have to leave.  What is God's plan?  My baby girl, I love you with all my heart.  You will always be part of me and I think of you always.  Be at peace my love.  Mom will hold you once again.....trying to be strong for you.   Hugs and Kisses my "love bug"....MOM