nightmare

I had a nightmare I was married to my wife for 20 years from now was lie sober, and then i lied to her she was devastated and hurt. I texted my wife about it she thinks it could be commitment issue, I am afraid of things working out because I have always felt alone like the inner child in me.  There is also the problem of me bossing her and controlling her life like old ancient traditions. She feels it could end up when we are old that I would hate her instead of loving her. If I truly want the best for her I need to change my mentality and listen to her work as a team. I hedge alot of work regaining her trust, treating her and my mom better, communicating. She is my best friend over anything else I should be freely open to talk to her and rely on her vice versa. I have to make the best decessions that are healthy a happy marriage is what God intended and rely on one another and live a peaceful harmonious life full of great memories for eternity. So I well be changing in the course of time and fearing not of commitment and embracing it so everyone can be happy.