Night time

Night time, it's always been a struggle. 

For as long as I can remember I've hated night time. My brain starts to do this thing were it replays situations over and over again in my head. These situations are usually negative ones. I lay here awake reliving moments I want to forget. In the day I can push them aside and get on with life but as soon as the sun sets these dark thoughts start creeping up on me. I'm terrified. I'm back in that moment. I want it all to end. I can't seem to find a way out. I want to forget but my mind won't let me. It's always punishing me. 

All I want is to fall asleep and never wake up. Maybe then I will forget.