Night time

I have been pretty good today.  I had a minor bit of anxiety at work, but after about an hour it was gone.  I am worried about when I go to bed though.  Everything gets worse at night, and laying there waiting to fall asleep is the worse.  I am so tired of having panic attacks almost every night.  They put so much extra stress on my boyfriend and he is already stressed enough with school/work.
I hit myself yesterday.  I couldn't cut b/c I didn't have scissors, so instead I punched my thighs.  That wasn't satisfying so I took a hard cover book and hit myself with the corner.  I have a few bruises that hurt today.  I don't really feel any emotion over that.  Not good nor bad, just there.
Good news is I got 6 more months worth of prescriptions for my meds.  Now I won't run out before I see my new psychiatrist!
 
I have more I could talk about but I want to end on a happy note.