Nice Day at Work
Today was just a regular day.... I was supposed to go in early at first, but I called in and they said I could come in at my regular time. I tried to go back to sleep, but couldn't, so I went in and had a bite to eat in the cafeteria. It was just rice, but it was nice to get out of the house and get something to eat. It's funny, when I was in the clinic for inpatient therapy, I couldn't stand the food and now that it's been a while I like it. At least some of it. I like having a choice of what I can eat, unlike being inpatient where you eat what they give you. After I had my lunch, I went to the information desk first and helped out there, because they wanted me to make more phone calls from a health fair they had a while ago. Then I went over to Managed Care and helped out one of the girls there. It wasn't the normal girl I help out, but still it was nice. I like working over in Managed Care.
I haven't found a job there that I don't like. I know some people don't like doing the callbacks from the health fairs, but I don't mind too much. I think I'm still in the honeymoon phase of the job, where I like everything about it. That's fine. It gives me time to get used to the job where if I want to work there, I can figure out if I really like it or what. I don't know, though... I like most of my jobs, even if I complain about them a lot. I used to do that with all my old jobs. I would find stuff to complain about. My last job it was that they wouldn't let me sit. As long as I could sit, I did well and the girl I worked with got jealous that I was selling so well so she took away the chair and I had to quit eventually. It's complicated, but I thought that I would be able to stand more for the job in the interview, so I said I could. It's my own fault for getting myself into that predicament in the first place, but that's the way life is sometimes.
Mood today is good... I had my coffee and after that I felt good. I'm still tired, but I didn't sleep well last night. I had a migraine again when I woke up, and so I didn't feel well around 8am. I took some pills and went back to sleep and slept okay until I had to get up at 11. I just don't sleep well when I have a migraine, and I don't know why I've been getting so many lately. I don't think it's stress... I don't remember being stressed out lately. I even took a nice relaxing bath last night, so I went to sleep feeling okay. I had trouble falling asleep again, I remember that... I feel tired and I think I take a short nap around 10pm to about 11pm, and then I can't fall back asleep. I don't know if that means I should stay awake until 11 and then try and sleep, or what. I just get really tired at 10 and I want to fall asleep then, so I get off the phone and try and sleep. If I stay awake until 11, then I don't fall asleep till midnight. Well, I don't fall asleep till midnight either way, since I wake up from my short nap in the middle of the night and can't fall back asleep until then.
Food today was good... I was in my calorie range and everything. I'm finding I'm getting hungry again, so that's good. I think that means the depression is lifting and that I will be able to eat normally again soon. I'm already getting back to normal for the most part. I have my chicken thigh for breakfast, today I had rice and gravy for lunch, ramen with veggies for a snack, and a chicken thigh with mac, cheese, and corn for dinner. I mixed together the mac and cheese with the corn for flavor (thus sparing butter or anything on the corn). I love mac and cheese, I just have to be careful not to eat too much of it and get sick of it too fast. I got a big thing of it at BJ's. Stress today was low... I didn't feel stressed that I remember, even when I was doing the call backs. I just remembered I'm supposed to be doing journals when I get home from work so I can remember it better, but I forgot. My therapist wants me to do that so I can remember stuff better. I have a horrible memory, especially when it comes to emotions. I'm just bad with emotions in general.
Tomorrow Geo's sister might come over (his older sister). I'm kinda sad that I have to work, since I like hanging out with her.... maybe I can get her to come over later so I can see her. I have training for the new phones at work tomorrow, so I can't miss work. Maybe I can come in a bit late so I can at least say hi to his sister... we will see. I might get stressed out tomorrow if she comes, and we have to clean the apartment up at the last minute. I know we should be doing it tonight, but I'm tired and I just want to get ready for bed. Oh well. Procrastination wins again.
I haven't found a job there that I don't like. I know some people don't like doing the callbacks from the health fairs, but I don't mind too much. I think I'm still in the honeymoon phase of the job, where I like everything about it. That's fine. It gives me time to get used to the job where if I want to work there, I can figure out if I really like it or what. I don't know, though... I like most of my jobs, even if I complain about them a lot. I used to do that with all my old jobs. I would find stuff to complain about. My last job it was that they wouldn't let me sit. As long as I could sit, I did well and the girl I worked with got jealous that I was selling so well so she took away the chair and I had to quit eventually. It's complicated, but I thought that I would be able to stand more for the job in the interview, so I said I could. It's my own fault for getting myself into that predicament in the first place, but that's the way life is sometimes.
Mood today is good... I had my coffee and after that I felt good. I'm still tired, but I didn't sleep well last night. I had a migraine again when I woke up, and so I didn't feel well around 8am. I took some pills and went back to sleep and slept okay until I had to get up at 11. I just don't sleep well when I have a migraine, and I don't know why I've been getting so many lately. I don't think it's stress... I don't remember being stressed out lately. I even took a nice relaxing bath last night, so I went to sleep feeling okay. I had trouble falling asleep again, I remember that... I feel tired and I think I take a short nap around 10pm to about 11pm, and then I can't fall back asleep. I don't know if that means I should stay awake until 11 and then try and sleep, or what. I just get really tired at 10 and I want to fall asleep then, so I get off the phone and try and sleep. If I stay awake until 11, then I don't fall asleep till midnight. Well, I don't fall asleep till midnight either way, since I wake up from my short nap in the middle of the night and can't fall back asleep until then.
Food today was good... I was in my calorie range and everything. I'm finding I'm getting hungry again, so that's good. I think that means the depression is lifting and that I will be able to eat normally again soon. I'm already getting back to normal for the most part. I have my chicken thigh for breakfast, today I had rice and gravy for lunch, ramen with veggies for a snack, and a chicken thigh with mac, cheese, and corn for dinner. I mixed together the mac and cheese with the corn for flavor (thus sparing butter or anything on the corn). I love mac and cheese, I just have to be careful not to eat too much of it and get sick of it too fast. I got a big thing of it at BJ's. Stress today was low... I didn't feel stressed that I remember, even when I was doing the call backs. I just remembered I'm supposed to be doing journals when I get home from work so I can remember it better, but I forgot. My therapist wants me to do that so I can remember stuff better. I have a horrible memory, especially when it comes to emotions. I'm just bad with emotions in general.
Tomorrow Geo's sister might come over (his older sister). I'm kinda sad that I have to work, since I like hanging out with her.... maybe I can get her to come over later so I can see her. I have training for the new phones at work tomorrow, so I can't miss work. Maybe I can come in a bit late so I can at least say hi to his sister... we will see. I might get stressed out tomorrow if she comes, and we have to clean the apartment up at the last minute. I know we should be doing it tonight, but I'm tired and I just want to get ready for bed. Oh well. Procrastination wins again.
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