next weekend

  Something has occured to me today.  He is afraid to lose her and has been afraid to lose me.  I guess it has been a juggling act.  He probably thinks I will always be there.  Tied down by the kids and undying love for him.  He may be surprised when I actually file those divorce papers.  I'm not doing it to surprise him.  I'm doing it because he has distroyed our marriage and for once in my life I have to use common sense and retain my dignity.  He was sad when I told our daughter to inform him that he could not come into the house when he's here next weekend to visit the kids.  That is according to Addie, our daughter.  I don't even  want him here and will probably be a big emotional mess just knowing about his visit.  I can't even look out the window at him, it will make me too sad.  What comes after that, I don't know I just need to heal and move on the best I can and have a shot at life after him.