New Years 2015

Here I sit... The first day of 2015. I have some clarity in my marriage, which brings me relief but also great sadness. My husband and I finally were able to have a night away from our son, and at dinner we spoke about the future of our marriage, and our lives together. We are both still so in love, but there has just been so much damage from the past that my husband cannot let go of. I do not believe he wants to do marriage counseling. He told me that a separation is very possible, and he kept making comments about how we will always be married but live apart... I do not think so. If he and I can't be married living together than I am moving on. I will take the time I need to heal, and then find myself someone I deserve, someone who will treat my son like he is his own. I just don't know where things are going. Our relationship seems to be going so good right now, but I don't know what his head is saying... So, I will just take it day by day and just hope for the best, be myself, and be the best wife and mommy that I know I can be <3