New Year......New Chance..... 2018
I am feeling a bit better. Because of the holiday, i saw no doctor and got no antibiotics so i still have some pressure and congestion in both sinuses and chest...but I will live (and call them tomorrow)
i realize...it is a new year....a new chance. I always did tend to think of the big picture...all or nothing. I focused on the end result that I wanted and any little slip was yet another disappointment in myself. I also have a very hard time turning to God...or should I say turning things over to him. (I am like that little kid who offers to share her blanket...but then rips it back again.)
Maybe it is because it is in the calm, stillness of the early morning....but is a good time to reflect. I realize what I want to do....steps i want to take to improve myself and my life. Financially I will have a struggle til we get this all figured out and settled, but I can't let that deter me into staying . For now (actually from now on) I will break things down into steps. This way i will feel I am making a smidge of progress as I take these baby steps .....nudging me on my way.
So, for today, I have a few goals in place. As I cross them off, one by one...I can step back, breathe, and smile knowing I am working on what I need to..... myself.
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Happy New Year VQ!
That sounds like a great plan. You can do it. You’re going to be so much better off soon. Hugs.
You can have my good luck or what little there is of it but it’s all yours.
Thanks. As the morning goes on, he is up and around. In between folding loads of laundry, I did dose back off. (still not quite feeling up to par) I hear this voice... asking if I can help him... I do. Walk out of the bedroom and hear him ask me to do something else....push the restart button on the computer in the other room. I go do that too because I know my laptop won't work either. The whole time (as I grumble to myself under my breath) I am thinking to myself.....I soon won't be a beckon call girl. woo-hoo
PS There is enough good luck and positive thinking to go around. GD you need some too. (But thanks for the offer)
His sister just informed us we will have bad luck because I am not doing the traditional pork and sauerkraut. (Is a PA Dutch thing). I am doing spareribs....just no sauerkraut. For him, he is a negative Nelly... he already dwells on the dismal. I will not.
I am praying for more laughs than tears this new year. It is so good to hear laughter!!!
Amen to that Mary! That is one thing I am lucky to have acquired over the years. Through an awful lot of very difficult crap over the years....humor did help to pull me through to the other side. That is why I do have such a silly, peculiar sense of humor sometimes.....I've had YEARS of practice. (Sorry guys. lol)
PS There is another group on here I came across..."Laughter is the best medicine, and friends"
As my day progressed, I was vacuuming at one end of the house and I thought I heard a slight crash. I finished and went to put the vacuum away. I find stbx standing in front of the bedroom windows. It seems he went to get up, lost his balance and fell against one of the double windows. (Luckily it is a double pane and he wasn't wounded....any more than normal anyway.) Of course all are blaming this start of bad luck on having no sauerkraut with the pork today.
I am still not giving in. I am determined to think positively....if it kills me. lol