New Year...new beginning

Having been absent for so long on dailystrength, I realised that I come back here whenever something is wrong or if I am extremely sad. Guess it's the purpose of this website.

So here I am... 

I have been with a guy for 4 months. He made me fall for him and said that he does not feel the same as I feel for him. It's been 2 long months but I am still stuck in his memories now. I am finding myself getting sick and sick thinking about him and the good/bad times we spent together. They were the best memories. This was my first relationship, at least on my side.

I do not know what was he thinking by bringing me so close to me to tell me that he is not ready for any commitment.

Then why would he do all that. When I asked, he said he would have done that with any friend and he was just teasing me or helping me.

I now find people untrustworthy and complicated.

I am so confused and sad.

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