new year

so I've been trying this new idea to help and it sucks . I'm supposed to forget her for now and wait for her to come to me . I dont like the fact that I'm the one that has to let go but god will do what he does . It's not easy and finding things to keep my mind busy but it works I can't Just forget she's alive but at least I have what if's that keep me level I can only hope she wont's to see me sooner . It keeps me full of hope