New to this...

Hi all! 

I'm not even sure who "all" is... I don't know who reads this... If it's just me or everyone else on here too. 

I don't know if I am going to stick with this site, but I hope I do. I need some sort of help here. Something to vent to at least whether or not it actually solves anything for me.

I also don't know what it is that I'm supposed to write here but I guess I should say a little about myself as a sort of background to me (if anyone else reads this and not just me, because obviously I know my own background).

On here I will go by Kay, hence the username "StrugglingKay." I am 19 years old living in Texas. I am currently enrolled at a junior college near where I live. I have 2 cats, a dog, and a hamster. I have an older brother and an older sister. I don't know what else to write here... maybe that my favorite color is blue? But that isn't very relevant. 

I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, depression, panic disorder, and a mood disorder. My mother has clinical depression and a couple mental things she doesn't like to speak about. My dad has Bipolar disorder and frontotemporal dementia, early onset. My sister has Schizoaffective disorder. My brother seems relatively normal compared to us, mental health wise. I think he takes medicine for something but I don't know what. But all in all, my family is pretty f'd up mentally.

I came on here so upset, looking for online support groups because I am struggling so much with everything in my life currently but for some reason I am holding onto so many things from my past that didn't use to bother me. But now as I type this, I have no idea what it is I want to say. What it is that I am supposed to tell you all. Maybe once I look around some more (on the site) I will know what it is that needs to be said or what it is that I am supposed to do here. 

If you read this, I appreciate it. I know I am rambling and I have no solid point here or actual issue being addressed, but I appreciate you taking your time to read this. If anyone even is reading this...

I hope you all are on your way to doing well,

Kay