New Stratagy

I call this sad, but in essence its really a call for help. I will ask God to help me for I can't help this guilty feeling that what I've done is going to hurt me and my ex more than I can stand. I changed my phone number so he can't call me anymore and so I won't go running to him thinking it'll be ok.....and it never is...! I still love him, but if I'm to be anywhere near HAPPY I have to stay away from him. I need to find a way to make new and better friends.
Dear God, please help in my venture to be free of the pain I feel inside my terriblely broken heart. I love Burt more than I have ever loved anyone and have tried numerouse times to get together with him, but it never works. He is not a strong person and needs help himself. Please God I only wants what's good and right for Burt and myself. We have to stay apart for our own good and I fear it will hurt more than I want to think of. Please help me to be strong willed and go forward to a place of peace. Amen
SJH