New Plan

I have seen the light! I am worth more than to sit around and wait for a man to decide I am "good enough"!  I have been used before.  I should have been quicker to recognize the signs!!  We see what we want to see sometimes.  I have not given up on the man I believe I love. I have given up on looking like a weak, insecure, wounded puppy! That is not attractive!  I am a strong, smart, loving beautiful woman. I believe he knows that too.  How couldn't he? I have shown him my best what I haven't done is require his respect! Things are changing!  I know I am the best he could get.  He just needs to decide if he is willing to put forth the effort required to have me.  If I require nothing, that is what is what I will get!!  If I act like a lap dog I will get treated like one (and have been).  Going forward I refuse to make the initial contact without a valid (not made up) reason for the call.  If and when we talk it will be about the subject at hand, not sappy love sick crap that let's him know "HE HAS ME"! I want him to not feel so secure in the way I feel so that he will make an effort!!!  If he does not than it was all a bunch of crap anyway! I am moving "FORWRD" with my life (not necessarily on {away from him}). God has a plan for my life.  He knows I deserve a man that loves me and when the time is right, I believe he will bring me one!  I don't know if it will be Tony or not? I love Tony so for me to want another man he will have to be someone very special so I am excited to see what lies ahead.  I refuse to sit home crying anymore because I don't feel "good enough"! I am one of God's children and he does not make mistakes!! I am "good enough" for him and now I am finally "good enough" for me too!  Look out world!