New Meds

Okay so I am going to break down and take the Celexa and Xanax. I am very scared about how they will make me feel and I really hope that I will see a drastic improvement in my anxiety. I know that it will take a little while before I see improvement but anything has to better than the way that I have been feeling these last few days. I really just want my old self back. I do not like feeling like something is always wrong or that my husband and children are walking on eggshells around me afraid that if they make a mistake I am going to blow up. I am also tired of wanting to run to the ER just for reassurance. I know that there is nothing wrong with me and all of these feelings are just anxiety, but I can't make the rest of me believe that. I want nothing more than to be myself. I am tired of this racing heart and feeling aches and pains everywhere. I am so lucky to have what I have and feel guilty for not being more appreciative and instead feeling miserable. I am hoping to see quick results with the Celexa so that I can be a part of my family again and start to focus again. Only time will tell.