new it wouldnt laast long!! =[

nick just had a massive go at me because i asked for help with our daughter who was screaming and wouldnt settle. he shouted at me and told me hes not putting up with this shit anymore! =[
 
he then chucked pillows at me and told me to fuck off. i then shouted at my daughter telling her to shut up and that it was her fault me and her dad rowed i feel like such a shit person right now really feel like cutting and just hididng away! m a crap mum but i love my daughter so so very much. theres no point living if im not with her!
 
i dont know what to do.. i cant cut incase people think i cant look after her. so im crying again. i love him but i feel her mentally abuses me calling me names and putting me down. hes never nice for long! i want that boyfriend back not this nasty one!!!
i love you lillba! xxxx Mummy always will xxx and im so so so sorry!