New home

I am so excited! I have decided to buy a new home!!!
I have picked a location for my new home and my new life. All I have to do is find the house!
I am going to buy a three bedroom home. I have decided to get a bigger house because I do want to be starting a family soon and I need to be investing in my future.
Yay! I was reading this article and it said money is like manure, you pile it up and it stinks, you spread it out and it promotes growth. That is so true. Why am I keeping all my money locked away. What for? I should be spending it and putting it back into my life. I have been petrified to part with even a single penny.
I have been a bit embarrassed over the last few years to mention to anyone how much money I have but I am starting to realise that is stupid. I understand deep down I did not love myself, I did not like myself, I did not feel like I really deserved what I had. I would always say I am not successful because so and so has done this, I am not wealthy because so and so has that, when I do this, When I have that then I will be happy. It was never going to be enough. I have put myself down big time.
I do not really have to work but always thought a new career would bring me happiness but I have always had my money to fall back on and run away to. I have been using it as a safety net. I never had this at the beginning and I didn't need it. The bigger the net has become the more I have relied on it. I do not need this security blanket in my life anymore. I am going to make some big purchases and spread the money out. Get back into life fearless, no safety rope, no one standing over me when I fall.
I can pick myself up if I fall. I am going to get back into life and stay there!
There's plenty more money in the world that I will have but there is only one life that can be mine. I am taking my life back.