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i'm writing this in blue because this is how i feel right now. i need all of your help...i need to have support with taking my medication. i dont like to take any of it because in my mind, i just dont give a damn. i want to die. either from the diabetes or a heart attack or stroke or at my own hands. with my depression as bad as it is then it could happen for real this time. i need someone to yell at me to take it or to just make sure that i do. can you help me to help me? i beg of you, pleaseee...............
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oh hun, you forwarned me and i did nothing, i\'m sorry, but here goes YOU NEED TO TAKE THOSE MEDS BECAUSEW IF YOU DONT THEN YOU WILL END UP IN HOSPITAL, DO YOU WANT THAT, REALLY, you have great skills and you need to look after yourself, hey if i can survive so can you, we\'re a strong bunch, we are able to get through our tough times, as time and again we have done so, choose to live for you have so much to offer others and this mixed up world, think of what it would be like for your nephew and nieces, without you looking out for them, are you getting the message, you still have something to finish in this life that you have only just begun, so please take those meds, that you know you need to take, in order to stay out of hospital and that you are avoiding for you are opting out. ok i hope that this has helped, thinking of you sending lots of love and big warm hugs, now take care OK, love carol
Jeanne, I\'ve searched for the right words for you and finally found them outside of myself. From someone on another site: \"I went through a long time when I couldn\'t see it ever getting better, and where the only escape appeared to be ending it.
I\'m so glad I didn\'t, and that I am still alive, seeing the happier days that I never believed would come :)\" If you can\'t see the light at the moment, know that it is there. Trust those who tell you it is there. Have faith. Fog never lasts forever. Infinite blessings on your heart.
TAKE UR MEDS!!!! remembr how much u have to live for. i know in ur mind u feel really bad right now. but unfortunately, our minds can play tricks on us. it doesn\'t always show us reality. u have so many frends here on ds. u have ur sisters children to take care of. as u get older they will love u and care for u and remind u that all the hard times were worth it. u have a full and fulfilling life ahead of u. taking ur meds will help u get to those good times. don\'t let ur mind play tricks on u. ur so strong. u know wat to do. we luv u and are here for u.
i have grudgingly avoided this site all night. i didn\'t know how to respond to you carol and especially you, shevie. i chatted with you, carol earlier and it helped alot. thank you for taking the time to help me sort some things out and for letting me vent... shevie, i want to thank you for the \"right words\". it helps to know that you tried to be supported to me. i did finally take one of my pills and one injection of insulin tonight. i guess it is a start. lets see what lies ahead tomorrow.i\'m trying to have faith but it is so hard. when i\'m in this kinda funk, nothing seems to help. this brain of mine is so hard to figure out. it is so confusing. it feels like this fog will last a lifetime... how do i help myself???? when i dont want to help myself or even care to? I NEED HELP. I\'M SCARED...