new goal

i'm writing this in blue because this is how i feel right now. i need all of your help...i need to have support with taking my medication. i dont like to take any of it because in my mind, i just dont give a damn. i want to die. either from the diabetes or a heart attack or stroke or at my own hands. with my depression as bad as it is then it could happen for real this time. i need someone to yell at me to take it or to just make sure that i do. can you help me to help me? i beg of you, pleaseee...............