New Day Same Pain Back To Work 1/2/2014

I woke up this mornin with no chronic pain as I have so many times before. As soon as I got up guess what, chronic pain. It's funny when I wake up with no pain it makes me think how amazing it would be to be normal again. I have always tried to stay healthy and it didn't matter. I will continue to try and stay healthy but it's hard not to feel totally broken.
Maybe the docs are right and this chronic pain will end someday. I pray to God that is true. The worst part of this all is that I can not find relief in any form! Pain meds really don't help...how crazy is that? It's just there. I hate that feeling. I feel like I'm only half a man.
I know that I have to just accept the fact that this is my life for now. I keep trying to accept it but it's hard. Then the little bastard goes away for a few hours like some evil spirit toying with me. It's like "hey remember when you were normal and pain free? well I'm taking that away now!" It's a very helpless and hopeless feeling.
Once again my mental state is actually pretty good considering. The chronic pain does bring my mood down but I'm thinking clearly unlike a few weeks ago. I want to focus on this positive, it's just hard when you have a constant chronic pain that reminds you that you're not healthy anymore.
God please allow this trial to end soon. If my lesson is to appreciate my health then message received! If tolerating pain is my lesson then I am going to work harder so this can end.
Time to start work. Please God help me through the day...