New Baby;)

Well through social media I found out my ED gave birth this morning to a little girl....My first grandchild.  The pain of not getting to see her or hold her is unbelievable. I haven't talked to my ED for almost 4 years or more now, I lose count.  I have been praying that now that she is a mother she will be forgiving.  Although we always had a wonderful relationship until 4 years ago.  I don't even know what happened.  She has no logical reasons other than a new husband who is very much a Buddhist and maybe they want to be alone.  Mother's Day I know was especially hard for all of us with estranged children...as is Father's Day.  I hop my next entry will  be more positive....