New and Tired

I was a member of the Support Groups+ for over a year, then after really blending well, people began getting frustrated with me. Saying I wouldn't listen to them, that I needed to move out, that I was handling everything wrong and I needed therapy. I understood everyones opinion but no one walks in my shoes. NO one wakes up in the morning fighting to want to get out of bed, just to be bombarded with pictures of my abuser around the house, my son saying he wants to go to Daddy's house (prison). My other older child not wiling to visit me here. The issue no one seems to understand is that I chose to move here in July. I was self sufficient living on my own with my child, working fulltime and doing it. But I chose to come back to help these old people out because no one else would. Speaking of no one else, during and after the abuse, I lost every friend I had, I secluded myself to heal, I lost my job, my mother said she thought she taught me better, my sister didn't want to deal with it. So it was this woman (abusers mother) and her only that helped me with the infant to toddler to now preschooler, it was her that came to the doctors with me, his surgeries, kept him as back up. SG people I had spent a lot of time with, poured my soul out and was ultimately rejected and KICKED off mid sentence. I am tired and don't want to be where I am.