Never good enough

I'll NEVER be good enough. :'( I'll never deserve her respect or love...

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deleted_user
deleted_user

Stephanie, sometimes the person you want love from, is not capable of giving it back to you. It\'s not about you. It\'s about that person. All I ever wanted growing up was two parents that loved me and was glad I was around. I never got that. My father NEVER said he loved me and my step mother only did a while before she died years later. They had me to believe that I was the most stupid, ugly, worthless child that ever walked the face of the ground. I was in trouble all the time, only I really never did anything that bad to get in trouble. I tried and tried to find love and acceptance from them. I never had it. But it was their issue really, not mine. It wasn\'t because of me they were unhappy, it was their own issues inside them. Of course I felt guilty and I felt stupid and worthless back then. That\'s what they wanted me to feel. I had years of learning ahead of me to find out that it was about them the whole time. Don\'t blame yourself for their behavior. Remember, you are Stephanie, you are not the person they say you are, you are Stephanie, the person you will choose to be. It\'s up to you to put all that aside now, kind of like putting it on a shelf until one day you can figure them out. But now its your time to get out there and make Stephanie the person YOU want to be. Does that make sense? You are you. My sweet Stephanie. On your way to find a better life for yourself. The door is open, fly little bird. Tell me what your first goal will be. I LOVE YOU little girl. love and hugs, mum
blackdog999
blackdog999

who\'s respect and love?
all my life I tried to win the love and respect and approval of my family and I am alot older than you and I only just worked out that no matter how hard I tried I couldn\'t win it because they had their own problems and couldn\'t really see the real me...this is so hard to believe and understand....and you will only get there in your good time. I am still working on this...but the thing is there is no point trying,,,,you have to live for you and then anyone who is worthy of your love...will automatically love and respect you anyway if you are a good person and you live a good life. and by that I mean you live for you and you do your best. that is all. Perfection is not necessary and it will never win you love. Trust me I have been trying for a lot longer than you..and I did everything I thought they wanted and I failed...and then I got worn out from it all and I ended up depressed. Learn from MY mistakes hon give up early. Live for you and live for God. thats all that matters. God knows your heart. Other people see the world through the twisted view of their distortions and sometimes this means we have to accept that the things they do to US are not personal although they may seem very personal. Does that make any sense?

Love n hugs.,...

xx