Never Can Say Goodbye
Today I stood and watched my daughter cry as she held her baby girl in her arms for the last time before handing her over to the adoptive parents. Even though we all agree it is the best thing for the child it ripped my heart out. It's a horrible thing to watch your child have to go through such pain.
Luckily for her, she has a boyfriend who loves her and who shares her pain. She has someone to hold her when she cries and who she can also offer comfort to.
I have no one. My pain is all my own to bear alone. And my tears fall unnoticed and unchecked onto my pillow in the darkness. It has ALWAYS been this way. And it will always be the same.
Sometimes it's more than I can bear. This is one of those times.
Luckily for her, she has a boyfriend who loves her and who shares her pain. She has someone to hold her when she cries and who she can also offer comfort to.
I have no one. My pain is all my own to bear alone. And my tears fall unnoticed and unchecked onto my pillow in the darkness. It has ALWAYS been this way. And it will always be the same.
Sometimes it's more than I can bear. This is one of those times.
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Let yourself feel good that the baby may have a better chance at a really good life this way...she may get opportunities that wouldn\'t have been possible otherwise.