Never: an aweful state of mind
i m currently at my best friend s house. all i want to do is cry. nothing happened i m just really depressed. this is the first time i ve actually felt depressed in a while. i ve been thinking about bobby a lot which is never a good thing. and what makes it worse is my best friends boyfriend is over. they re so in love... i just feel like it s being rubbed in my face that i ll never have that. everyone always tells me mae don t say that. you ll find someone. no i won t. i wasted all my love and trust on people who don t care. i can t put my heart in something only to have it torn to peices... again. it hurts knowing i m going to be alone forever but theres nothing i can do about it now. i m broken. i can t be fixed.