Nesting!!!!!!!!
So I am in super nesting mode. Very hard to do on modified bed rest, but never the less that is what the internet is for. I starting freaking out that she only had 1 pink blanket. (she has several neutral ones from DS) So I ordered her some amazon. I also ordered a bunch of al natural organic lotion and bath stuff. Along with pink towels and wash clothes. Today I bought her another pink blanket, some pink receiving blankets and another towel. Im freaking out. I know we have more than enough things for her but Ian had so much and I just want be prepared.
Today where are family Christmas photos. FAIL. I also tried to get Ians 2 year old pictures. DOUBLE FAIL. You cant take good pictures with a 2 year old. The ones I got are the best of the worst. Kimber will be here in like 53 days or less. More likely sometime mid to end of December. Im having my 2nd child next month. As excited as I am I am also so nervous and scared. Ian is finally starting to get what a baby is. He will see one in a book and say baby and point and say momma and point. Sleep is pointless at this point because I cant get any. I cant get comfy I can fall or stay asleep. Its not even the peeing. I stay up so late because im not tired and pee so it doesn’t wake me up. Kimber thinks night time is salsa dancing time. That with the horrible heartburn for drinking water is enough to make cry. I just want to sleep!!!!!!! I have a OB appointment tomorrow. Nothing special. I am so excited about Thanksgiving. I love Thanksgiving. Its my favorite holiday. I love the food.
I am praying for a few DS sisters that are going through IVF right now. I really hope that I can add Im thankful for their BFP to my things I am Thankful for. I am so nervous for them. I feel like I need to POAS! Im nervous for a few reasons. Getting pregnant is only half the battle for one of them like it is for me. Its staying pregnant that also presents a huge obstacle. Ian was my 4th and only successful pregnancy. I know what’s its like to g through loss after loss after loss. But I also know a mother drive. Becoming a mom is not something you just give up on. You keep going, keep exploring other avenues until you make your dreams happen.
My story is so typical. After 3 losses and then a year of not being able to get pregnant via fertility drugs and treatments, DH and I moved on to Adoption. We competed the classes, the home study, all of it. We had a baby room all ready to go and we were just waiting on the call. And then what do you know I got pregnant Naturally. Yep the typical once you start adopting you get pregnant. I never ever thought it would happen to us. SO then we try for #2. And we try and we try and we try. A year later, buckets of tears later, and more heart break we are back to step one. I did one round of clomid and it worked. How one round on a low dose worked when several rounds on higher doses and fertility treatments didn’t I will never know. Now I am almost 33 week s pregnant with my little girl. I want another one after this but as many of you know I have been in and out of the hospital and been admitted a few times due to pre-term labor. I will not do this to my family again. It is not fair to my son my husband or my MIL that has moved in with us to help. What I would do without my MIL I don’t know. She packed her bags and flew 700 miles out here to help. I sent her home Saturday because her dad fell and the doctors don’t think he will make it. He has been very sick for 2 years. But now he is knocking on deaths door. The doctors told them to call in hospice if he makes it home. I had DH take tomorrow off work and his mom will come back tomorrow evening. I just wanted her to go see him one last time if this is the end for him. I couldn’t be the one responsible for not letting her say good bye. She fought me on it and said she says good bye to him every time she sees him. I am so happy we saw them 2 times when we went down there a few weeks ago.
So im getting ready for Christmas shopping. We only need to get my BIL and his wife a present. I already got everyone elses. Well tonight Ian is making our parents. I got canvases and paint. I will do foot and hand prints for them to hang up of him. I am getting Dh a ipad that he knows nothing about. He will be so shocked and surprised. I have been dropping tips he is getting a suite so when he opens it he will be so happy. He has been pestering the crap out of me for one and I have been saying no and how we cant afford it and he is so selfish to want something like that with a baby on the way and with how we just paid 2500 in medical bills for ian. His parents are helping me with it. They will probably give me $100 for it. I am upping our holiday fund to $100 a month starting in January. Ians Birthday is 12/8, Dh is 12/10, Kimbers is 12/?, then Christmas, then our anniversary is 1/27. So I will change what I have put into out holiday account. I think $1200 a year should be plenty for everyone. DH and I have small families so its just our parents and his BIL/SIl and my Niece and of course our kids and each other.
I think I managed to talk DH into getting me a camera for my Push Present, Christmas and anniversary. We have a digital one but I one a more professional one with a good lens to take pictures of the kids and stuff. Not the little one we have now that isn’t that great.
We got a great surprise last month. We knew Dh was getting a raise but we were anticipating only about $500 after taxes but its actually $1000 a month after taxes. That’s almost our mortgage payment. So we are being able to save a lot right now and get some nice little extras with out worrying. Im hoping to put about $500 into savings a month right now and use the other $500 to pay off all these little bills we have like a tax bill. Both our cars need tires so its nice to have that in cash. We don’t use CC so its nice to have that breathing room.
Today where are family Christmas photos. FAIL. I also tried to get Ians 2 year old pictures. DOUBLE FAIL. You cant take good pictures with a 2 year old. The ones I got are the best of the worst. Kimber will be here in like 53 days or less. More likely sometime mid to end of December. Im having my 2nd child next month. As excited as I am I am also so nervous and scared. Ian is finally starting to get what a baby is. He will see one in a book and say baby and point and say momma and point. Sleep is pointless at this point because I cant get any. I cant get comfy I can fall or stay asleep. Its not even the peeing. I stay up so late because im not tired and pee so it doesn’t wake me up. Kimber thinks night time is salsa dancing time. That with the horrible heartburn for drinking water is enough to make cry. I just want to sleep!!!!!!! I have a OB appointment tomorrow. Nothing special. I am so excited about Thanksgiving. I love Thanksgiving. Its my favorite holiday. I love the food.
I am praying for a few DS sisters that are going through IVF right now. I really hope that I can add Im thankful for their BFP to my things I am Thankful for. I am so nervous for them. I feel like I need to POAS! Im nervous for a few reasons. Getting pregnant is only half the battle for one of them like it is for me. Its staying pregnant that also presents a huge obstacle. Ian was my 4th and only successful pregnancy. I know what’s its like to g through loss after loss after loss. But I also know a mother drive. Becoming a mom is not something you just give up on. You keep going, keep exploring other avenues until you make your dreams happen.
My story is so typical. After 3 losses and then a year of not being able to get pregnant via fertility drugs and treatments, DH and I moved on to Adoption. We competed the classes, the home study, all of it. We had a baby room all ready to go and we were just waiting on the call. And then what do you know I got pregnant Naturally. Yep the typical once you start adopting you get pregnant. I never ever thought it would happen to us. SO then we try for #2. And we try and we try and we try. A year later, buckets of tears later, and more heart break we are back to step one. I did one round of clomid and it worked. How one round on a low dose worked when several rounds on higher doses and fertility treatments didn’t I will never know. Now I am almost 33 week s pregnant with my little girl. I want another one after this but as many of you know I have been in and out of the hospital and been admitted a few times due to pre-term labor. I will not do this to my family again. It is not fair to my son my husband or my MIL that has moved in with us to help. What I would do without my MIL I don’t know. She packed her bags and flew 700 miles out here to help. I sent her home Saturday because her dad fell and the doctors don’t think he will make it. He has been very sick for 2 years. But now he is knocking on deaths door. The doctors told them to call in hospice if he makes it home. I had DH take tomorrow off work and his mom will come back tomorrow evening. I just wanted her to go see him one last time if this is the end for him. I couldn’t be the one responsible for not letting her say good bye. She fought me on it and said she says good bye to him every time she sees him. I am so happy we saw them 2 times when we went down there a few weeks ago.
So im getting ready for Christmas shopping. We only need to get my BIL and his wife a present. I already got everyone elses. Well tonight Ian is making our parents. I got canvases and paint. I will do foot and hand prints for them to hang up of him. I am getting Dh a ipad that he knows nothing about. He will be so shocked and surprised. I have been dropping tips he is getting a suite so when he opens it he will be so happy. He has been pestering the crap out of me for one and I have been saying no and how we cant afford it and he is so selfish to want something like that with a baby on the way and with how we just paid 2500 in medical bills for ian. His parents are helping me with it. They will probably give me $100 for it. I am upping our holiday fund to $100 a month starting in January. Ians Birthday is 12/8, Dh is 12/10, Kimbers is 12/?, then Christmas, then our anniversary is 1/27. So I will change what I have put into out holiday account. I think $1200 a year should be plenty for everyone. DH and I have small families so its just our parents and his BIL/SIl and my Niece and of course our kids and each other.
I think I managed to talk DH into getting me a camera for my Push Present, Christmas and anniversary. We have a digital one but I one a more professional one with a good lens to take pictures of the kids and stuff. Not the little one we have now that isn’t that great.
We got a great surprise last month. We knew Dh was getting a raise but we were anticipating only about $500 after taxes but its actually $1000 a month after taxes. That’s almost our mortgage payment. So we are being able to save a lot right now and get some nice little extras with out worrying. Im hoping to put about $500 into savings a month right now and use the other $500 to pay off all these little bills we have like a tax bill. Both our cars need tires so its nice to have that in cash. We don’t use CC so its nice to have that breathing room.
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