Nervous!

I feel like a fucking 8th grader! jesus..lol...Im not really complaining about it, it's just so...different. For the last 5 year's i've been in a lie of a marriage. I really forgot what this feeling feels like...to care so much for someone. We'll the girl i've been writing about invited me out with her friends on Thursday...im a bit nervous! And im not a nervous a person..lol...ahhhhhhhhhhh I'm looking forward to it. She is also coming up to my trailer for the long weekend=)....I really hope this is what i hope it is...I really really really do. ughhhh sighhhhh =)