Needing a friend

This wasnt how i wanted to start off the new year. Last night i was talking to my sister because these past few months have been really bad for me. I have been friends with a girl since my sophmore year in high school and we were like the best of friends. Now shes basically cutting me out of her life, even though she doesnt realize it. I've been bawling my head off not just this morning but the past few days. I dont have a friend to hold my hand and listen when i need someone there.... i want someone to give me a heads up and asking how i'm doing. I know my past few blogs are kinda the same thing, but it just keeps getting worst each day. I dont have a nice group of friends, i feel all alone. I dont have that many friends , nor true ones. As much as i know my mom and sister are there for me , in a way its not enough because i dont have a friend, a buddy to shoot the breeze with. I hate feeling this way. I'm very unhappy, and all i wanna do is let the emotions run. I just want a friend i can count on, who i can trust, i dont have anyone like that. I would do anything for my friends, give  up my day and run to see them, thats who i am but look at how i get treated in the end. My suppose to be friends who say we are close, dont even tell me the big stuff thats happening to them, i didnt know one of my best friends got married, having a baby etc, had to find out on the internet. Am i just not that important enough to be apart of someones life to know whats going on with them.?