Need to vent some ...
Well, I have been having some real problems with pain and fatigue lately and unfortunately I don't think I am handling things very well. I am having trouble coping with the stresses at work when things get out of whack. I thought maybe I was feeling bad because I got off the steroids that I had been on for my Colitis flare for 6 weeks. It has been a few weeks though and I am not feeling any better. I am at a loss for what to do, so sick of dealing with my health issues. I know my family is sick of me not feeling up to a lot, although I have been still doing what they want me too and just suffering through it all instead of enjoying it. I work in a very stressful job, where my boss is prone to mood swings and tantrums... I have hoped to get into something new there and wouldn't you know the minute I am spiraling downhill with all of this pain and stuff an opportunity has opened up. It will cause drama and upset and would require me learning a new job completely. I am so stressed out trying to make the decision to go for it. I am not sure I can handle it at this point but chances don't open up very often there. The fatigue and brain fog is really getting bad and since it would cause drama I don't think I should risk it. I am so depressed by all of this, I can't concentrate and I can't be sure I am thinking clear enough to be making such a big decision right now. So the other day I decided to finally get my eyes checked since they have been hurting and bothering me lately. Now they are concerned about my eye pressure Being too elevated. Then she tells me I have something wrong with my eyes that is causing them not to work together so I am getting my new bifocals with a Prism in them. I just want to give up! This is just way to much stress to have and deal with the rest of my life.
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*hugs* I hope things get better!
I know that feeling all too well. It\'s like we are all apart of a club that nobody wants to belong to. The constant fatiuge and pain is so draining physically and mentally. I know how family and friends have a hard time dealing with it as well. How some people can be insensitive and frustrated with all we go through. I wish they could understand how hard it is just to get out of bed some days and that we want nothing more than to be better. It\'s depressing demoralizing and effects every aspect of our lives. I hope and pray you will get some relief and you can get past this very dark time.
Thanks for letting me bend your ears a little. I am struggling a lot with the fatigue it seems just as difficult to handle as the pain. It\'s like riding a crazy roller coaster and I HATE Roller coasters! I do appreciate the understanding comments makes me feel a little less like I am going crazy.