Need to take a break...

I just got off the phone with the NP at the RE's office and they have said the blood work came out okay, the estrogen level is at 501 which she said was good (although I don't believe her) but they want to back off on the Bravelle a bit.  So, new stim/injection changed to 3 Bravelle, 2 Menopur and 1 Ganrilex (sp?) for the next couple of days.   Took at minute to ask her about the follicles; 3 on one side and 2 on the other which is only 5 total.  What gives?  She advised that it would be extremely surprising to see anymore pop up with this cycle and that they would cancel it if there were less than 3.   How depressing...I really just want to throw in the towel on this one, get a pack of cigarettes and throw caution to the wind.