need to be home

need to be home 6 WEEKS AND REALLY NEED TO BE HOME NEED TO BE A MUM AGAIN Feel usless not being a mum  just want to be normal again do what i want to do when i want to do it miss cooking cleaning and just looking after my boys as a mum should miss doing housework yes housework how crazy is that shit just need to be felt wanted and my independce back big time had finally come with the fact i have lost botn legs aaaaand yes it sucks big time so now its time to get on with life and sstart being what am good at being a mum miss that big time and being happy or sad when i want to be with people asking me am i right, just cause  am having a bad day not going to do anything stupid  got to much to live for  just doing alot of thinking about the new life iam about to start without or with maybe new legs how wonderful that would be but also if it doesnt happen well its not the end of the world my boys andpaul and missy will still love me legs or no legs but the ? IS JUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSST HOW MUCH WILL I LOVE ME SELF  not much at the monent very hard on myself for getting in this way no one to blaame but myself if only i looked after myself alitlle better would be so much happier not the long road of happiness  has just began so days will be good so not so good but will just have to take one day at the time wake up with a smile and just go for it the best waaay  i know full on  plus learn how to love myself and not hate me so much everyone makes mistakes yes even me not no supermum jusst a mum who needs to be home being mum best medicince in the world for me done as much rehag as possible so now got to get on with my new life and thats not being stuck in rehab need the real liife not somewhere were life just goes on and on as if theres not a care in the world well thats not the life for me i need the ups and downs of every day living  if am to get my life back so how do i convince doc that i am okay how do i tell boys mum not sick just lost legs  not sure but if anyone has the anwers please tell me